Sorry, sorry and sorry....

1. I'm sorry I let you down..
2. I'm sorry I still not ready to ACCEPT ANYBODY in my life as for now.
3. I'm sorry because maybe sometimes I always talk & talk to you bout my life.
4. Thank you because tell me the truth & tidak memakse untuk menerime kamu...
5. I've warned you before to not fall in LOVE with me.
6. I'm sorry but maybe I can just be you friend. Not even more than that.
7. I'm sorry because I don't know what to say. I'm confused, feel terrible and extremely shock.
8. I'm sorry to say that I don't love anyoone as for now.
9. Maybe I cepat mesre dgan kawan, but it doesn't mean that I will Love you as well. Its hard for me.
10. Thank you for being my good good friend.

p/s: Terime kasih sebab mengaku. Terime kasih sebab dapat menerime penolakan saye. Terime kasih kerane tidak memakse dan mempersoalkan kenape saye begini. Saye tidak menyangke langsung kamu akan fall in love dgan saye. Sudahlah sudahlah sudahlah....saye tidak ingin bercinte LANGSUNG buat mase sekarang..Terime Kasih sekali lagi. (Mood tgah bercelaru, tetibe teringat kenangan dulu, bile akhirnye diri sendiri akan dipersalahkan. Kes macam ni jugak. And yeah, I better be awaayyyy from all this CRAP!!!)

Say Bye-Bye.......

Just come back from KLCC. Pergi jumpe supervisor,staff2 Petrosains sume untuk say goodbye and thank you. Mule2 pegi skybridge sume ttpi hampe, ramai volunteer yg ku kenali xbekerja harini..aduh kecewe. Selepas berpeluk - pelukan dgan Kak Zu, saye pon terus pergi ke Post Office di Concourse Level untuk mengepos barang. Seriously, first time dalam hidup ni I pos barang. Like seriously, FIRST TIME!!! hahaha..Walaupun blur + takut + ragu2, harus beranikan diri jugak sebab barang tersebut harus di pos SECEPATNYE!!! Then, terus ke Petrosains. Tetapi kali ini bukan ditemani Mr Nasafi, tetapi Mr Arif. Then, sesudah sampai I pun jalan2 dekat offices sekali terserempak si Amat Amekaw @ HR Executive di situ... Dah kene stop pulek mmandangkan die dh panggil, sebab belum mengisi feedback lagi.atoi2..malasnyerrr... Then, haruslah ke meje die dan mengisi borang evaluation. Sedang khusyuk memikirkan ape yg ditulis, die duk membebel kt tepi I. I yang sedang mengisi evaluation niyh pun naik pening dngan soalan yg diberikan..hahaha...susah2 ..Mcam2 soalan jugak yg diinterview oleh beliau dan I pun buat muke macam tgh take exam.Amik feel org katew..kihkihkih. Dan beliau pun berkate.." Ape plan lepas ni? Bile nnk sambung?"..ok fine. I jawab..."Tahun depan kot...saye pun xtau lagi." sambil tersipu2 dekat situ.hahaha..gewdik..Then die sambung lagi. "Eyh, awak dengan bf bile nk kawen ni?"..oppsss...terus I terkejut kat citu..terus buat bunyi "haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa???" yg agak pnjang di situ dan beliau pun  mentertawekan I.hahaha. Dan I pun decide malas nk bgtau yg I ni xde pakwe nnti kang kami berdue bergosip plak kt citu.ahaha..Staf2 lain pun dh pndang2 bile beliau asik mentertawekan saye..aduhduh. hihi. Dan selepas saye berjaye mengelakkan diri daripade disoal beliau ttg BOYFRIEND, LOVE OR SOWHATEVER yg berkaitan dengannye, beliau pun mule mengomel sendirian cakap saye seharusnye pergi travel bnyak2, utk hilangkan stress sume sebelum sambung belajo,haha..And lagi satu!!die tanye ade sangkut dgan mane2 volunteer x? Hahaha...saye hanye menggelengkan kepale dan tersenyum. Saye amat susah jatuh cinte wahai encik Amat.kikiki..I hanye bagitau yg kes haritu je, dapat candy love dari visitor Indonesia but then takut2 nk terime apetah lagi makan. Urrrghhhh...Takut2. Mane tau ade bad intention jew. Then, tanye psal staff2 sini dgan muke harapan dapat korek rahsie dari saye. hahaa.. Again, saye dapat menjawab soalan beliau dengan jayenye.ngehngeh. Well, kamu amat memahami wahai Mr Amat. Tapi apekan daye, cadangan kamu utk travel nnti akan dijalankan, Insyaallah tp nantilah, tgu jumpe someone dulu.hahahaha...(Harus ke ade someone utk travel??ahha..Awin mmg pelik!!). Skrg ni pun ade member ajak g Singapore, hell yeah..tapi tgu dh ade bnyak duit nnti okeyh!!heheh. Then, before balik Amat give me some small present. I don't know what it is actually but it looks cute and of courselah ade kaitan dgan Sains kan?hahaha.. And again, I got notebook from Petrosains. Hahahahha..Yes2. Well, sedang I bersembang dan bergurau lame kt citu dgan ,Mr Amat, kesian pulak Mr Arif sbb tgu saye agak lame di Kinokuniya, Terime kasih kerane menunggu dan terime kasih jugak sebab belanje saye novel..Hahahah...Menurutnye, die nk habiskan baucar, then suruh je I pilih buku mane2..I ape lagi..pergi lari kt corner novel, terus belek2 n I found this novel...With my name in it..As heroin okeyh!!Tajuk die adalah 'Mencari Taman di Hati'. Wah..taman ape agaknye?hahaha...Xboleh blah excited tgok name sendiri..name je pun...I read the synopsis, n agak hampe sbab jalan cerite die macam xbest sgt..hahaha..But I just take it. Orang nk belanje kan?ahahah. But I guess minggu depan baru leyh bace lah kot, yelah selagi I xpresent, selagi report x print, selagi tu rase resah gelisah berpanjangan.haha..Apelah..ok then, nk g mandi lah because nk packing barang lagi ape sume, Bilik dah bersepah dgan baju2..Oh myyyy...baju2 I bnyak yg xlawo dan sgt tidak up-to-date fesyennye. hahaha.....Harus pergi shopping neyh!!!. And satu lagi, xde gmbar dalam entry kali ni, sebab I dah xde camera. Sekian, Terime Kasih..=)

p/s: Kenape lately ramai orang nk tanye sape bf aku, bile aku nk kawen @ tunang neyh??
      Muke ni nmpak cam ade someone special kew or macam org IN LOVE ke??Xdekan xdekan.....??
      Muke orang tengah susah hati, sedih hati, kecewe, keliru sume adelah...apedaaaaa kamu semue...
      aduhaduh....=__________=

I Miss You Like Crazy.....

Even though it's been so long
my love for you keeps going strong
i remember the things that we used to do
a kiss in the rain till the sun shines through
i tried to deny it, but im still in love with you

i miss you like crazy, i miss you like crazy
ever since you went away, every hour of everyday
i miss you like crazy, i miss you like crazy
no matter what i say or do
there's just no getting over you

i can see the love shinning in your eyes
and it comes in such a sweet surprise
if seeing is believing, it's worth the wait
so hold on and tell me it's not too late
we're so good together
we're starting forever now.

and i miss you like crazy, i miss you like crazy
ever since you went away, every hour of everyday
i miss you like crazy, i miss you baby
a love like ours will never end
just touch me and we're there again

just one night 
and we'll have the magic feeling like we used to do
hold on tight
and whatever comes our way we're gonna make it through

if seeing is believing, it's worth the wait
so hold on and tell me it's not too late
we're so good together
we're starting forever now.

and i miss you like crazy, i miss you like crazy
no matter what i say or do
there's just no getting over you

and i miss you, baby
i miss you baby
all the tender love you gave me
when a feeling gets this strong
i know the real thing will come along
and i miss you....

i miss you like crazy baby
only your sweet love can make me

p/s: I miss you, I miss You, I miss you. I always thinking of you. I don't know until when I will love you and hopes that I can fix everything with u. Everything!!And I'll be happy again. How I miss our moment together, the moment we get through sweet and sour in life, i miss how ur face when u tease me, miss the moment at our campus. How I wish we never be apart like this. And I'm sorry for letting you down and didn't admit my mistakes. Just want you to know, until now, I always LOVE you even not so strong as before but I always remember our moment together. Be healthy as always okeyh? I still remember your face in pain. I'm so afraid to lose you..I cry while seeing you at the clinic that day. Again, thank you for being so nice to me when we together.. I hope I will meet someone that will LOVE me as much as you can. How I really hope for that. Do take care of yourself.I'm just doing okay here. After everything that happen, I just be more stronger and mature than before. Yes, again. I love to see others happy other than myself. As u said...LOVE never compromise. Yes I do agree with you. Again. I miss you very bad.

p/s: Sorry bile I tetibe post pasal die. I don't know, suddenly yesterday I mimpikan die and that dream just woke me up and I cry. Why? Why? Why? He's no longer in my life right now but the memories keep running in my mind. How pain is that??? Tomorrow, I will fly to Sarawak, and yes I think that make my emotion getting worse. Memories here and there. Sumpah, terlalu banyak.  I don't know what to do.  I don't know what to do. Pleaseee...I want to forget everything even it is hard. I'm hurts enough. Please don't let me think bout him anymore. Pleaseee...Dear RRDA, I hope u always success and happy with your life now. No matter what, I always miss our moments together. =,))))

My Sister "DOTTY"....=)

Swim together setelah dipakse....ahhahaha...

Meet my pretty sista....xoxo

Okeyh, lately entry I asik pasal I jer..niyh nk citer pasal my sis. NurShazwani Amira bt Mohd Ali. She's 19 n currently study at UITM Kota Samarahan taking Dilpoma in Accounting. So, lets see some info bout her.=)

# She's second in my siblings. Beze setahun jer dgan I and maybe that make we both close.

# I panggil die dotty je di mane gelaran tu diberi oleh family I.hahaha..

# Kalau nk diikutkan, die dari tegas dari I.. Yelah, I manje sedikit daripade die..hahaa

# Everytime I kenalkan couple I, die pasti akan rapat dgan couple I. Which is VERYGOOD!!

# Die xsuke kalau I nangis sebab laki, nnti die wat muke xnk dengar je kalo I ngadu..ahahahaha

# I'm not sure die ade bf ke x skrg..belum interview lagi.lol

# Kami mempunyai hobi yg same iaitu gile bergambo dan shopping.Tgulah aku keje nnti...kihkihkih...

# Same goes to me, seorang lelaki juge pernah melamar die before..xboleh blah..nasib due2 xgatai sgt. haha

# Die LEBIH LEBIH LEBIH LEBIH  berani, cantik dan peka dari I.

# First time I drive adalah bersame die yg bertindak sbg tutor I.

# Menurut die, I sangat bersifat tidak rasional dalam bercinte..Yeah riteee..haha

# Body die maintain je dari dulu, xmcam I.kejap gemok, kurus sume.hahaha...But I xsuke sgt..die keding!!!hahaha

# Die selalu membantah kalau I wat something stupid. Oh...for surelah!!haahha

# Unlike me, die mempunyai ramai kawan, di sane-sini. Mungkin disebabkan sifat peramah die.=)

# Mukenye nmpak garang dan serious, but actually I lagi garang. Xcaye tanye adik2 lain..hahaha

# I xde sangat nk simpan rahsie dari die. Sume bnde I dh gtaw die I guess.hahaha

# Kitorang dah lame xpakai baju sepasang. Last time pun I beli blouse. Which is patern petak2 and also singlet stripe.hahaha

# Die suke sound I kalau I kuat makan. Katenyer nnti bf lari. That tyme ade bf lah..hahaha

# Die juge suke tarik2 rambut saye kalau bergurau.kihkih...

# Ade pape yg die xpuas hati pasal member die mesti ngadu kt I...kdang2;lah...haha

Hurm..tinggal lagi sehari je nak balik Sarawak. Xsabar pun ade, rase sedih , takot pon ade. Bak kate orang, hati ni resah gelisah jugaklah. Just don't know why. Am confuse, afraid and sad too....On 8 Mac, ade presentation bout internship then after that I will have damnfree time at Sarawak.. Till 20 Mac  lak tuh..Gossshhh..lamenyer..ape jelah aktiviti I kt sane nnti..aduhhh...hahaha. Xperlah..I rase maybe as usual, I akan bermalas-malasan dalam bilik die, or kalau ade orang ajak kuar I kuarlah. Macam life I mase student dulu. Yelah, balik sini nnti I dah nk start keje or maybe xstay dgan family dah. Oh myyy,.and I will be damnbusy after that..plus kt area Shah Alam/Subang lak tuh...Xmo xmo xmo xmo...tapi xpe..ikut jelah...Yang penting saye dah bersedie!! Untuk terus berjaye dan bahagie..Dear UiTM...insyaallah tahun depan kite jumper lagi...=)

p/s: Dahlah...I nk tido lah..bnyak keje lagi belum buat. Belum packing my things...report pun ade bnyak lagi nk edit..aduh2..letih rase badan niyh. Esok nk pergi KLCC lagi..jumpe member, nk pegi pos barang lagi..Ni dari tadi asng rame-rame yg masuk bilik I xkeluar2..duk main2 depan lappy neyh. Ade ke patut si Mimi ckap.Akak,,ade orang nk dtang minang tuu..hahaha..What the..Amik kau sekali kene sekeh.kihkhikih. Ok dah2.Bye alls..Goodnyte and Sweet Dreams..=)

I'm the type of girl who will burst out laughing  in dead silence at something
that happened yesterday..

Should OR NOT??

says: Should I do this???
        Should I do that??
        Oh, help me!!!!....am confuseeeee...tsk..tsk..tskk...=_________=

Just Okay....=)

Just finished watching this movie. Totally lemsss bukan? cerite dh kuar lame kot. 2nd Feb I think. But Luckily, I dapat tgok this movies without pergi ke cinemas even mase mule2 kuar dulu rase cam nk tgok wayang je. Well, singleandlazymovingirl mmg xsuke g tgok wyang I guess. hehehe. Layan jelah sorang2 ngadap lappy dalam gelap, my sis sume dah bedengko tido. hahaha ..And so far...I think that this story was pretty good...Jalan cerite die, mcamane cinte dorang terhalang semuekan, ade sweet2 scene gitu and I ternmpak si Livonia which is ex-junior I turut berlakon as extra dlam this film.. Well, keep it up babe!!=) Cite ni blh dikategorikan kelas cinte agung jugaklah.Yelah, dah Paris jadi tempat lokasi kan?? Oh my...dapat x agaknye saye menjejakkan kaki di "Kota Cinta" tu bersama kekasih/soulmate/lovers ek?Eyh..bukan same ke sume?eissshh..I nk beranganlah tonite.hahaha. See you there Paris. Lol. Ok, stop blabbering.  Hurm...but I bet dalam real world xbnyak kisah cinte sebegini. Yelah..ape yg indah, ape yg romantik tu sume dalam drama.  In this real world, we face tooo muchhh problemsa. Too much okeyh!! .thats why I more into Pinoy movies...Totally love it!!Sebab everytime I tgok cite dorang of course meleleh air mate. Yelah, dululh time kt hostel layan sorg2 atas katil..bile roomate panggil cepat2 kesat air mate.hahah..ngadeww sgt ko kan awin?? Examples like citer One More Chance and I Love You So. Rase macam besttttt sgt2 cite die bcoz lebih realistic n masuk akal.kan2?? Plus tgok hero die..auuwwww...Ni nk tambah ni, I sangat suke tgok Neelofa. Her face, her body, her voice. Woaaahh..totally adore..Cantik sgt.Kak..share tips dpat body macam akak.bleyh??*winkwink*kikiki....okey then..nk tido dah...Rase penat sgt2 plus esok nk start continue finishing my report. This weekend I harus membusykan diri dan apabila sampai di Sarawak lebih bnyak story menanti..hahaha...And I think I already know aktiviti ape yg akan I buat bile dh smpai sane nnti. Ya Allah...janganlah aku terserempak dengan sape2 yg pernah hadir secare langsung atau tidak langsung dalam hidup aku sebelum ni. Amin...Because you know what. Lately, tibe2 orang yg xdisangke muncul dalam hidup ni. And I was like...*sighhhhhhh* Just stay awayyyyy lah!!//huhuhuu. Ok then...Goodnite alls..And have a Sweet Dreams..I nk pegi Paris jap dgan my prince.ahakkkkssss...

p/s: .Say I Love You or Mahal Kita to your Lovers before sleep,owkeyh??!! (Pesanan Penaje).. =)

Today Fave Quotes...(=^^,=)

Cinta bukan mengajar kita lemah tetapi mambangkitkan kekuatan. Cinta bukan mengajar kita

menghinakan diri tetapi menghembuskan kegagahan. Cinta bukan melemahkan semangat tetapi

membangkitkan semangat. ~Hamka~

Dalam setiap keindahan akan ada mata yang melihatnya. Dalam setiap kebenaran akan ada

telinga yang mendengarnya. Dalam setiap cinta akan ada hati yang menerimanya. ~ Ivan Panin~

Cinta itu tidak pernah meminta, ia sentiasa memberi, cinta membawa penderitaan, 

tetapi tidak pernah berdendam dan tidak pernah membalas dendam. 

Di mana ada cinta, di situ ada kehidupan, manakala

kebencian mebawa kepada kemusnahan. ~Mahatma Gandhi~

Waktu itu terlalu lambat bagi mereka yang menunggu, terlalu cepat bagi mereka yang takut,

terlalu lama bagi mereka yang sedih, terlalu cepat bagi mereka yang bergembira, tetapi bagi

mereka yang jatuh cinta, waktu itu abadi. ~Henry Van Dyke~

Nytesss Heart!!! =)

that won't dissapear..

A nightmare bedtime stories,.Past is past, but somehow, it will always haunt you and the memories will keep stay in mind. Some will have a really sweet love memories, some are not. How lucky if smeone have ppl who loves them for who they are, being honest in their relationships, being honest in loving someone. But seriously, am getting bad. Always blame myself for what had happen. Again, am fool and helpless. What can I say, I'm just a girl with small heart but with a big dreams. I'm whispering out of nowhere. Nothing to say, Time will Heals everything, rite??

Story Here and There..=)

Hye.. Happy Sunday peeps...Yes, am now at home already. Supposedly I belum balik dari kampung but then adik I si Godang Ain kene balik awal because ade exam 2morrow. Hahah. And Mr.A been so kind to pick us up at Tg Malim and send us back to KL. And we all patutnye ade plan nk kua jalan2 but Mr A also have to go back early since this evening die pun harus balik ke Bangi.Neway, thanx a lot. But then, boring pulak sorg2 kt umah..Xpelah..as usual mengadap blog kesayangan I ni lah and pasni I nk rest kejap...Then, 2morrow baru start bekerje keras siapkan report terchenta since next week dh nk balik Sarawak. ADUHAIII..Dan selepas balik dari Sarawak bermulelah kehidupan baru I.Ya Allah,lancarkanlah majlis pertunanganku.Oppss...hahahahhaa..Jokinggg yarr.=p.We arrived at Kalumpang around 4.00 pm..Then my mum terus singgah kedai kuih wat minum petang bersama bonda tersayang. Saat masuk je kampung I tu, terus I tersenyum sendiri mcam kerang busuk. Hhahaha..jujur..terlalu bnyak kenangan kt kampung ni.Manis, pahit, masam, masin sume ade. Seriously..I sangat rindukan semue kenangan tu. Kenangan bile I jadi budak baru kt kampung ni, kenangan bile senior sound2 I konon rmpas bf dorang..hahaha..Dan juga kenangan I dgan Adnan kt cini. How I miss him very much...=(..Ok dah Awin.!!Dan sesudah sampai, bermulelah perbualan ibu yg macam2..Bahase Nogori kuar owkeyh..N me macam biase, malas nk campur..terus g dapur wat air sume..then ngadap tv tgok match takraw.

STORY 1

Then, petang we all gerak ke Tg Malim which are my second kampung..belah my daddy. Senangkan kampung dekat2 but then letih jugaklah asik nk ulang-alik. Agak2 bakal husband I orang jauh ke dekat ek nnti?hahah...*winkwink* Plus, petang ni ade pasar malam..So I decide to follow my mother even I ni jenis xsuke berhimpit, plus panas plus sesak sume tuh. But since dh berkurun abad I xpergi mase study kt Sarawak so I decide to join them lgipun pasar malam Tg Malim ni ade kelainannye.hahahaa...Okeyh..sambil berjalan cuci mate kt sini, I suke sgt dengan gelagat orang kat pasar malam ni.I just lovee it..Ade papa tgah tolak baby stroller sambil main dgan baby die yg kiut miut, ade couple yg sangat sweet bile bf die kesat peluh kt muke awek di celah2 orang ramai., ..so sweettt...,ade yg mama marah anak sebab nk baju Boboiboy..hahaha...Well..This is what we called LIFE..And I sangat suke tgok semue ni..Sampai tersenyum2 sendiri walaupun hati masih dilande kesedihan.hehehehe...=p

STORY 2

Layan citer Face-Off sambil berselubung dgan selimut sebab tahan sejuk yg amat.Macamane lah nk pergi overseas kan I niyh.?Puas orang nk layan kerenah I nnti.hahaha..Well...umah opah I tengahari panas kemain but malam...urrrgggh...xtahan I dgan sjuk die. And around 11 I guess, he called me. Yeah, him. Laki yg pernah I sayang??. And yes..we TOTALLY discussed bout all this crap. But I ask him to just keep silent rather than keep apologizing to me and yes, I don't want to hear any excuses. Easy for you to apologize man. But not for me..So..I just talk,talk and talk...And yes, after agak lame I membebel sorang2, this problems settle. Die dah mintak maaf n tutup cerite. And yes, sincerely man. I wish for your happiness. =) But its too weird when I realize that I relax je bile bercakap dgan die. Like I'm supposedly kene nangis or tersedu2 maybe, rite? But no...I rase macam sangat tenang bile bercakap. Bile I bagitau die perasaan I lepas semue ni jadi, bile I cerite kat die betape I xsangke semue ni happen, bile I mendoakan kebahagiaan die lepas ni dan macam2 lagi. Then bile dh hang up, dahi I berkerut sendiri. Pegi baring, then pandang ceiling. "Eyh??nape aku xnangis tadi?Rase sebak sikit pun xde?"..hahaha...ok pelik di situ. Tapi xpe, I dah bersyukur sangat2 sebab I rase macam dh dapat terime semue ni. Even takes time..at least I xdelah nk bersedih sangat dah dgan ape yg jadi kan.Well, life must go on..Xkan I nk terus bersedih dan bersedih?.Maybe Allah have a bigger plan to me. As for now...stay positive n membusykan diri jelah yg mampu I buat. And to someone..don;t say the word LOVE to me...I can't accept u as for now.

 Give me MORE TIME...I REALLY NEED MORE...Big Sorry to You.  Lagipun lepas all dis things happen..I don't think I will be in a relationship..Never and am totally not ready yet.. U go and find girl lain je k?. Yes, u wait for me..Lame..But aagain..am not too good for you.  I'm not ready to love someone now. -_____-

STORY 3

Sedang I termenung ke luar tingkap mase dalam kete tadi, Mr A tegur. He ask me.Kenape muke macam nk nangis? .aahahhaa...why must face look pale,look so gloomy.No lah...mane ade I nk nangis..and what for I cry?? I mabuk darat ok..Tgah hujan..sejuk2 dalam kete..rase pening n nk termuntah sgt. Dats why kalau dlam kete I senyap je.hahaha.. And he even ask me to smile and relax.hehehe..He said tat ramai lagi yg sayangkan I n maybe one fine day akan dtang someone dalam hidup I. Well thank you because had been so nicee bagi ceramah free even short, tapi penuh bermakne. Hahahah..asik kene ceramah je I lately. Belum balik Sarawak lagi..Agak2 macam manelah nnti.hahahah.Hurm...got 3more days before balik Sarawak..And still many things I belum siapkan. Xpelah..slowly honey..I mesti boleh!!..Kawan2 lain pun belum siap kot..hehe..Balik sane nnti..I nk pergi pantai. WAJIB!!! Compulsory to do bile hati dan fikiran tgah berkecamuk. Ceeh...again.Drama sngat.hahaha...N yes..I nk duduk tepi pantai..main pasir sambil tgok pantai yg cantik sangat tu...Mesti buat.Mesti!!..=) 

Sile abaikan jerawat tension tuh...=)

Si Tembam dan Si Kurus..ahaha

I don't know why lengan I beso camneyh..hahaha

Si Godang memanjat pokok...hahaha..berani!!!

Marco Alcaraz...Mahal Kita!!

See him!!Deyymmmmhot!! oH aktor filipina mmg sume hensem2. Sangat!!..Aduhhhh...Geram.*gataaiii..*hahaha.First time I know him bile die berlakon dalam cite It Might Be You long time ago...Oh My godd....Love him so mucch...wlupon xpernah jumpe.hahaha..Tgok muke die pun tau die penyayang, romantik, dan macam2 lagi.lol..Tapi dah kawen dh pun...hensem sangat2..agak2 I ade standard x nk dpat bf macam ni???ngehngeh....

oh my....Pengsan jap...=p

muaaahhhxxx...=*

Heart his body...ouccchhh...*wink*

Nampak macam I snap sendirikan??lol

p/s: Last entry for todayy..Lega korangkan??hahaha...Well, I have to follow my family balik kampung. My dad xkasi tinggal. So yeah..okay I ikut jelah...well dear Mr.A...nnti2 je g tgok wayang or pegi zoo..hahaha...I know ur intention nape nk bawak I g ctu kan??Well..thanxxx...but sorry..Next week je k..=)..Bye Allss!!!

Don't Ask!!! =,)

Tengahari tadi, my friend call..saje tanye khabar I guess. And sembang punye sembang smpailah die tanye my story..Bout what happen?Why?When?Who? Sume keluar..And lastly, I jugak dipersalahkan. Dan antare kate2nye adelah seperti di bawah..I malas nk listdown ape yg kitorang cakap..Sebab i dh membebel pnjang berjela  tadi, just explain to him bout what happen. Smpai hampir terbabas lah petang tadi...N yes..pinggang I sakit semule...-___-. Dan selepas saye habis bercerite...........................................

# Laaaaaa..........................knape jadi camni???Kenape wi percaye sgt kat die? See what happen now??..You're hurting urself!!!Die dh happy sebab dapat balik ex die n wi masih bersedih sebab baik sgt lepaskan die? Setau #### wi xmacam ni?Cepat sangat mengalah.? N dat guy nape kejam sangat? Knape die xterus-terang hal sebenar? Buat wi macam ni? ..dahlah wi.Lupekan laki tu..He's not the best for you. Jangan carik die n mintak penjelasan.Kalau btul die jujur n ikhlas mase kawan dgan wi, die akan carik wi bagi penjelasan. I xde kat sane. I jauh..And bende macam ni jadi kt wi. Sabar okey..Sabar..Everythings happen for a reasons.Biarkan die bahagie dgan pilihan die and someday die akan sedar..Jage kesihatan..Jangan fikir sangat..Just be happy..

(How I wish to be HAPPY Mista #####.................)

Hurmmm...I guess I xperlu nk story kpade semue orang bout what actually happen. Biarlah I sendiri yg 

tau..dan juge pembace blog niyh. I dun have to worry, sebab bukan ramai pun follower I niyh. So Mista #### Don't ask too much...Please?? I admit my mistakes. Because I easily fall in Love and just don't know how can I fall in Love with a wrong guy. Yes Mista #### saye tgah bersabar skrg ni, kalau x mmg saye xtau ape jadi. Saye pun xtau macam mane boleh jadi macam ni..Sebab die memilih untuk mendiamkan diri daripade memberi penjelasan kat saye. Saye pun xsangke die seteruk tu. Padahal saye tau, sebelum ni die sgt baik, memahami...Tapi bile dh jadi macam ni die lari. Sembunyi.But, Past is Past. Siape saye nk halang semue ni dari jadi kan? Dear Mista ###..Not to worry..Jage diri kamu disane. Kirim salam pade girlfriend kamu yg cute tu. Sorry I tolak u nk skype ke, ape ke.I tgah xde mood. Sangat xde. Thanx for call me and listen to me. Buat susah2 aje...U take care there frenzzz...=). N to all readers...SORRY AGAIN N AGAIN...I keep posting bout this...I mengaku, sangat susah nk lupekan semue ni. Kenangan all that. Just too hard for me. Dan selagi I belum fully RECOVER from all this...Selagi tu saye akan membebel.Just can't help it. I'm Sorry.

 SORRY......

Saye yang Dulu!!

OMG....xsangke I masih ingt akaun MySpace i..tempat i bersosail tyme kecik2 dulu..hahhaha...And I found several pictures dalam tu..Such a memories!!!Menangis lagi...ahhahahah

Rindunye dgan kulit halus mulus niyh...Lol

I miss my long2 hair....

Outing kt Sarawak dulu on my besday...=)

So many ways we can say I Love You, isnt it?

Love it..<3

Tyme ni I tgah ber-webcam dgan my ex...So tgh budget cute lah..hehe...

says: Hhahahahaha...rindu sangat2 dgn sume gambar ni...Like what Yuna said.."Dalam gambar, ade lagu."..hahaha...But I pulak...dalam gambar..ade story..I really miss my kanak2 life..hahahaha...My Dear Awin...maybe u shud turn to your old life...Be happy!!...And no one can hurt u again...Yeah I hope so...-_________-

Heart-to-Heart Conversation..Love You Mom...!!

Sedang membantu ibu masak kat dapur..Menu untuk harini sup tulang ayam dan juge tauhu bercili. Lol. Usually, ibu akan tanye I ape menu yg I nk masak, but I guess she knows I tgh xde mood kot. So I just tolong ape yang patut. Last day I sembang itu ini dgan cica...N today dgan ibu..bile dh ibu n anak gadis kat dapur mestilah bergossipkan??haha. .Mule2 sembang pasal orang lain.Bercerite perihal laki kawen due...Ya Allah..jauhkanlah aku dari alami situasi macam yg ibu aku cerite tadi..Smbil tu I pikir 2 3 kali..nk bagitau xnk eyh?? Then, I decide to tell her rather than she knows later or from someone else...Hhhmmmmm.....

I: Bu..awin nk cakap ni..awin dh xkawan dengan ......... lagi...

Ibu: Kenape pulak??Kan baru je?

I: Entah bu..xde jodoh kot. Biarlah...awin suruh die pegi kat girl yang die sayang..

Ibu: Kenape xrebut je?? Ko xsayang die ke? And ..... ckap ape?

I: Die diam je bu..So I guess tindakan awin btul lepaskan die..xpelah. Mungkin jodoh dgan orang lain. Bukan

   die. Awin pun xpandai nk bergaduh2 pasal laki ni. Awin lebih rele undur diri utk kebahagiaan org lain.

   Biarlah diri sendiri sakit pun, bnde ni semue dh biase. Dah mcam drama pun Awin tgok.

Ibu: .xpelah...Allah tu dah tetapkan sape jodoh kite. Terime je semue tu. Mungkin ade yang lebih baik akan

       datang nnti. Jangan fikirkan sangat nk bercinte ni. Tgok ayah n ibu, lepas bertunang baru bercinte.

       Keje dulu, lupekan semue ni. Insyaallah...one day u'll be happy. Ibu xdelah nk menjodohkan angah dgan

       sape2.Siape pilihan angah tulah pilihan ibu. Angah dh besar..angah tahu baik burukkan??

I: Ok bu...awin mmg bercadang buat mcam tu. N awin rase nk lupekan semue ni...Andai kate xde jugak

   jodoh smpai 25 tahun nnti, Awin terime jelah jodoh pilihan keluarge...Boleh??Dengan anak cik Ramlan tu

   pun boleh. Janji xnak askar. Even Pegawai Mude or so whatever. Xnk askar....

Ibu: Insyaallah...bnyak2 solat..mintak petunjuk.Ape yg baik untuk diri sendiri. Angah tu mude lagi. Ni baru

       ckit dugaan yg datang. Kene kuat..Jangan tau nk meleleh je air mate tu..Lupekan je semue ni. And ibu

       xckap setiap laki yg angah bawak balik umah tu jodoh angah. Dan angah mesti kawin dgan die? Tu

       pilihan Angah..yg mane baik yg tu ibu terime. Dah..jangan sedih lagi.Sabar....

So, I guess I akan ikut cakap ibu I..She ask me to forget all this crap thing and work at Shah Alam or Subang area..Maybe die sendiri pun tau I kene separate myself dari semue ni. Bukan bererti lari..but start a new life. Dunie bekerje.. Menurut ibu, busykan diri..then I akan dapat lupekan semue ni dgan cepat. Tanpe sedar. Dan Insyaallah..jodoh I akan datang dgan sendiri..And that time, ibu sempat pesan, jangan bercinte bagai nk rak, tapi akhirnye kahwin dengan orang lain. Kite ni manusie bese..xdapat nk lawan takdir dan jangan sekali-kali nk lawan takdir. Susah,senang,sedih,gembire tu semue kerje Tuhan. Kite xdapat nk lawan. So dengar cakap ibu, balik dari Sarawak nnti...duduk dgan Kak Enie atau Mak Su..kerje kat sane..Insyaallah semuenye akan baik..Dan I pun pergi masuk bilik ngadap report balik sambil fikirkan balik kate2 ibu tadi dengan hati yg terlampau sebak. But betul jugakkan..Maybe I shud go...Stay awayy from all this. I xtau kenape I sedih n emo sgt pasal bnde ni. I just don't know....But it's okay. I'll be fine someday... =,))))))

says: Sorry...Dlam mase 2 hari ni I keep on posting something sad and look pathetic. Angels, I bet y'all can guess what I facing through..I masih bersedih n terkejut dgan ape yang jadi. Dan I memilih untuk luahkan semuenye kat sini jer....Blog kesayangan I....Dear Azri..minggu depan jelah kite meet-up k.Aku xde mood nk keluar n esok nk balik kampung pulak. Sorry keyh.Okey then, thanks for reading..Xoxo, =)

Smile Awin...Just Smile...=)

Someone told me I just look so sweet if I smile and laugh...

But I really just can't now..Tomorrow??yes,maybe........=)

So I guess I have to smile again....and live my wonderful Life, isn't it????

Imisstheoldme!!

To be frank, I'm just too missing to be the old me. Bukan rindu apelah kan..hahaha...rindu awin yg hyperaktif dan bnyak ckap, miss my body of course..kalau dilihat dalam gmbar2 kt bawah I nmpak kurus ckit..ckit jelah..i mane pernah kurus sgt pon.ahahhaha...Unless I rase keding bile sakit, and thats's all.ahahaha..Well,to be true..rindu giler zaman mudo2 remaje.hahahahah...Mase ni tau nk ber-SOSIAL je..aaahaa...oppppss...mind ur words, honey!!And yeah..miss my face. Even xselicin Kak Hanis Zalikha yg cun-melecun, but at least I xfeel down everytime I sentuh2 pipi n dahi I..Gosshhhh...now I dunno what happen, but my skin kelihatan sangat pucat, pimples everywhere. Huhuhuhu...So sad...N yeah.Same goes to my hair as well. Ok but, as usual I ignore all that. As long that I'm happy. All that can be recover if I rajin wat treatment,this and that. And semue tu hanye boleh dilakukan kalau saye berduit ye. Ulang..jike saye berduit.Why sometimes people don't understand n keep forcing me? Korang ingat aku kaye ke??Hahahhaa...Why don't u alls yg belanje saye then??Asik nk memberi komen ke atas diriku ini jer..hahaha..(dah melalut)...Okay...Oh sangat susah dpat kulit sensitive but lagi susah kalau kite malas nk jage.Hhahahaha...Even kene gigit nyamuk ckit, n then I garu kulit I akan terus jadi buruk. 

And yeah....as usual...ibu akan bising bile I akan berterusan garu..sampai lengan pun dh mcam2 scars timbul...*SIGHHHHHH* 

Meet cda yg kiut...=)

oppps...jus found dis pic..lol.

mwaaaaacccccxxxxxxxxxxxxx!!!!!!!!!

p/s: Just found these pictures in my lappy and terus decide nk post in ma blog. Xde kene-mengene ape pun actually...hahaha...saje ngader. Well...Awin kan,Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...hahaha...Ok then, back to work.Assignment..Actually harini xsentuh langsung because I'm suffering backache n juge pinggang ni rase cam nk tercabut. Tulah gatal sangat duk bergelk tiru Preity Zinta. Hey..babes, body u xlentur macam die lah???...Okey at least I'm trying.hahahaa...Jusst IN LOVE with hindustan songs lately...n terus mengade nk ikut dorang joget..Ape jelah Awin oiiiiiiiiii....................(^^,=)

Lets Picca Do The Talking....=)

 Last pic, ni lah Amat "Amekaw" tuh..hahaha...Die sangat giler2 but professional. He will look very serious n tegas if in office attire. Takutt...Lol. Thanx for the support Mr Amat..Even xpuas hati kene panggil gemok...Lol!Yes, u r right!!PETROSAINS yang buat saye jadi gemok begini..hahahaha...=)

Got Headache!!

Kepale sakit bagai dipanah...daaa....=p

P/s: In front of my lappy for hours. Do research on this and that. But then, report baru 5 pages. OMG!!What happened...xtau ape nk tulis, ape nk karang n my report shud be in 8000 words n now baru ciput jer. At the end, akan tersadai atas katil n buat muke blur n hug my big bear or mengadu kt si die. .hahahahahha...What theeee...And now I got MAJOR headache!!!. > = <.

GoodBye Mr. Lelaki Ini..

Hellowww there....last day was my final day doing my internship.babeh.heheh...I feel so happy but badan dah malas2 nk start wat report yg maha banyak tuh. Puas duk merungut dgan due senior iaitu sudu dan hana.hahaha..Lol,,,sorry u guys and thanks coz bagi advice sumeee...weeeee...=).Supposely, I nk balik awal yesterday n join dorang roll-call. But then, si Nasafi tibe2 kol n cakap die available today n nk belanje makan. Me ape lagi, terus cancel smpai abg Mail membebel."ohhh..pentingkan kawan lagi dari kitorang,xpe2"..hahaha.Alah...next week akan jumpe diorang jugak..thats why xsedih sangat..heheh..Then, I wait dis guy at skybridge lobby and si Emma and Ain nmpak. Punyelah gatal smpai sanggup kejar I bebudak tuh..hahaha...n they said that his face look alike Pierre Andre.Omgg...kembang bontot ko nasaf..hahah.Actually, I kenal dis guy mase kt Petrosainslah..Die volunteer jugak..n salu gaklah bersembang2 dgan die coz die rajin nk tanye pasal my bf, my ex sume2lah. Then, baru2 ni die fell in love dgan my fren. Gatal kaww kan?hahaha...And why I gelarkan die as Lelaki Ini? Agak lucu actually...hahahah...No need to mention.Malas pulak nk citer.haha..And this Saturday he will go to Sydney, Australia for study purposes. Tengok je kaw giler2 camtu an.hahaha...ok till then, do take care of yourself and jangan lupe bawak balik patung kangaroo aku..hahahahhaha...And thanx for the Nandos' but to be true I don't like their chicken kebab and also sidelines. Xsedap okeyhhhhhh!!!Lol...^^

Si Nasafi Azman alias Lelaki Ini..LOL

Thanx for the Nando's./=)

ME AS INTERN STUDENT..

Rakan model katewww...hahahahha

mISS Y'ALL!!

Meet Puteri Awani. I adore her hair,her skin, everything!!!=p

ni namenyer mengular..hahaha

Another two days and bye-bye intern's life. Hahahha...Frankly speaking, I really happy doing my internship here. Both at Petrosains and also Skybridge Visit. Well, even I am no longer will do my practical here, but I will continuously working here as a volunteer.

INTERN'S LIFEE..

First time masuk, rase bosan aje memanjang. Kene layan budak2 sekolah, visitors sumer...Totally no-no for me untuk customer service. Sampai my along says." Ko ni jenis boleh keje office je,"..okeyh..xfaham why he said so. Okey fine..but then dah lame2, rase best sgt..then sngat gembire bile dapat member ramai n most of them are volunteers. From different U, background and even sometimes baru kenal je kitorang dh bergosip itu ini. Hahahah...We have so much fun, okeyh..Lagi2 bile kene jage BYB station kan, hahaha..Then, bile time lunch break je sume baju kuning keluar beramai2..hahaha..But then, ramai yg dh xde skrg..ramai yg sambung study, ade yg dh koje. n si Nasafi Azman akan fly ke Sydney this Saturday. Serious am jealous.  Xde teman lagi dah nk gelak kuat2..Hahahha..tgok je die tu lalok gituww an.hahaha...but A-level student tu. neway,good luck frennn!! And big thankx to all staf yg tersangat giloo kepale mereka. (certainlah kan...hikhik), Tapi mereke sume mmg giler bergambar macam shayer,hahaha..Thanx for all guidance and support selame saye di sini.Arigatoo.....=). And today unexpectedly, I was being invited to join them to visit KL Tower and also Aquaria, I will post it later!!!Because am toooo tired now. seriously sangat letih rase badan neyh. Aduh cane lah kalo dh keje btul nnti..huhuhu..Its okeyh, u can do it honey!!! (motivate myself,LOL)..K,Till then, bye peeps..=)

u're rock!!

GEMOK, TEMBAM!!

Si gemok yg gile bergambar..haha

Hallo...actually saje je nk post dis thing since ramai dh complain Nursyuhada Azwin yang makin gemok bagai dipam-pam..hahaha..Lol. But actually to be frank, memang I dh lame Xexercise..Lol..sangat rugi I xbawak i punye sport shoes. Then,hasrat nk jogging tu xdelah kalau sport shoes tu xde.Keselesaan itu penting ye.haha..What to do, I punyer body memang jenis yg cepat naik kot..huhuhu..Makan bnyak ckit dh gemok. Kalau xmakan sehari pun,perut kempis sekejap je..hahahhaha.But orang ckap gemok ni tande kite bahagie. Bahagia ke? Hanye saye dan Allah sahaje yg tau nmpaknyer. Hehehe...Well, my mum pun xpernah menyekat nafsu makan saye kan.haha..So, makanlah selagi terdaye.hhehehe...

That's why bile ade guy yg dtang mengorat mesti warning awal2. 

"Hello, saye kuat makan okey..so handle me as much as you can".haha..I just don't like and will be angry if someone stop me from doing things that I like. Just like before, when someone keep on blubbering on me. Say NOOOOOOO to this and that. Gisssashhh..Rimas tahu. I know that maybe untuk kebaikan saye, n beliau ingin melihat saye kurus. Tapi sorry, I just can accept people who don't accept me for who I am. I don't have to change my appearance, attitudes all that. Its good to be me, the real Nursyuhada Azwin. To be frank, memang I always merungut.salah I gaklah.hahaha..You, I gemok.You, pehe besar. But then, xberusahe nk kurus, xreti2 nk g jogging ke, diet ke.main bntai je makan, Mane xbody gedempol gini?? Apelah...hahahahaha.LOL ME...=P

p/s: oK, ENOUGH. JUST WAIT & SEE I AKAN JADI KURUS KE TIDAK BEFORE MARRIED..Waaahh..hahaha

Semase kecik, saye memang tersangat manje dengan semue orang..See!!Chubby dari dulu..Lol

I Swear This Time I Mean It!! =)

p/s: Just Don't Crush Me..=)