Story Here and There..=)

Hye.. Happy Sunday peeps...Yes, am now at home already. Supposedly I belum balik dari kampung but then adik I si Godang Ain kene balik awal because ade exam 2morrow. Hahah. And Mr.A been so kind to pick us up at Tg Malim and send us back to KL. And we all patutnye ade plan nk kua jalan2 but Mr A also have to go back early since this evening die pun harus balik ke Bangi.Neway, thanx a lot. But then, boring pulak sorg2 kt umah..Xpelah..as usual mengadap blog kesayangan I ni lah and pasni I nk rest kejap...Then, 2morrow baru start bekerje keras siapkan report terchenta since next week dh nk balik Sarawak. ADUHAIII..Dan selepas balik dari Sarawak bermulelah kehidupan baru I.Ya Allah,lancarkanlah majlis pertunanganku.Oppss...hahahahhaa..Jokinggg yarr.=p.We arrived at Kalumpang around 4.00 pm..Then my mum terus singgah kedai kuih wat minum petang bersama bonda tersayang. Saat masuk je kampung I tu, terus I tersenyum sendiri mcam kerang busuk. Hhahaha..jujur..terlalu bnyak kenangan kt kampung ni.Manis, pahit, masam, masin sume ade. Seriously..I sangat rindukan semue kenangan tu. Kenangan bile I jadi budak baru kt kampung ni, kenangan bile senior sound2 I konon rmpas bf dorang..hahaha..Dan juga kenangan I dgan Adnan kt cini. How I miss him very much...=(..Ok dah Awin.!!Dan sesudah sampai, bermulelah perbualan ibu yg macam2..Bahase Nogori kuar owkeyh..N me macam biase, malas nk campur..terus g dapur wat air sume..then ngadap tv tgok match takraw.

STORY 1

Then, petang we all gerak ke Tg Malim which are my second kampung..belah my daddy. Senangkan kampung dekat2 but then letih jugaklah asik nk ulang-alik. Agak2 bakal husband I orang jauh ke dekat ek nnti?hahah...*winkwink* Plus, petang ni ade pasar malam..So I decide to follow my mother even I ni jenis xsuke berhimpit, plus panas plus sesak sume tuh. But since dh berkurun abad I xpergi mase study kt Sarawak so I decide to join them lgipun pasar malam Tg Malim ni ade kelainannye.hahahaa...Okeyh..sambil berjalan cuci mate kt sini, I suke sgt dengan gelagat orang kat pasar malam ni.I just lovee it..Ade papa tgah tolak baby stroller sambil main dgan baby die yg kiut miut, ade couple yg sangat sweet bile bf die kesat peluh kt muke awek di celah2 orang ramai., ..so sweettt...,ade yg mama marah anak sebab nk baju Boboiboy..hahaha...Well..This is what we called LIFE..And I sangat suke tgok semue ni..Sampai tersenyum2 sendiri walaupun hati masih dilande kesedihan.hehehehe...=p

STORY 2

Layan citer Face-Off sambil berselubung dgan selimut sebab tahan sejuk yg amat.Macamane lah nk pergi overseas kan I niyh.?Puas orang nk layan kerenah I nnti.hahaha..Well...umah opah I tengahari panas kemain but malam...urrrgggh...xtahan I dgan sjuk die. And around 11 I guess, he called me. Yeah, him. Laki yg pernah I sayang??. And yes..we TOTALLY discussed bout all this crap. But I ask him to just keep silent rather than keep apologizing to me and yes, I don't want to hear any excuses. Easy for you to apologize man. But not for me..So..I just talk,talk and talk...And yes, after agak lame I membebel sorang2, this problems settle. Die dah mintak maaf n tutup cerite. And yes, sincerely man. I wish for your happiness. =) But its too weird when I realize that I relax je bile bercakap dgan die. Like I'm supposedly kene nangis or tersedu2 maybe, rite? But no...I rase macam sangat tenang bile bercakap. Bile I bagitau die perasaan I lepas semue ni jadi, bile I cerite kat die betape I xsangke semue ni happen, bile I mendoakan kebahagiaan die lepas ni dan macam2 lagi. Then bile dh hang up, dahi I berkerut sendiri. Pegi baring, then pandang ceiling. "Eyh??nape aku xnangis tadi?Rase sebak sikit pun xde?"..hahaha...ok pelik di situ. Tapi xpe, I dah bersyukur sangat2 sebab I rase macam dh dapat terime semue ni. Even takes time..at least I xdelah nk bersedih sangat dah dgan ape yg jadi kan.Well, life must go on..Xkan I nk terus bersedih dan bersedih?.Maybe Allah have a bigger plan to me. As for now...stay positive n membusykan diri jelah yg mampu I buat. And to someone..don;t say the word LOVE to me...I can't accept u as for now.

 Give me MORE TIME...I REALLY NEED MORE...Big Sorry to You.  Lagipun lepas all dis things happen..I don't think I will be in a relationship..Never and am totally not ready yet.. U go and find girl lain je k?. Yes, u wait for me..Lame..But aagain..am not too good for you.  I'm not ready to love someone now. -_____-

STORY 3

Sedang I termenung ke luar tingkap mase dalam kete tadi, Mr A tegur. He ask me.Kenape muke macam nk nangis? .aahahhaa...why must face look pale,look so gloomy.No lah...mane ade I nk nangis..and what for I cry?? I mabuk darat ok..Tgah hujan..sejuk2 dalam kete..rase pening n nk termuntah sgt. Dats why kalau dlam kete I senyap je.hahaha.. And he even ask me to smile and relax.hehehe..He said tat ramai lagi yg sayangkan I n maybe one fine day akan dtang someone dalam hidup I. Well thank you because had been so nicee bagi ceramah free even short, tapi penuh bermakne. Hahahah..asik kene ceramah je I lately. Belum balik Sarawak lagi..Agak2 macam manelah nnti.hahahah.Hurm...got 3more days before balik Sarawak..And still many things I belum siapkan. Xpelah..slowly honey..I mesti boleh!!..Kawan2 lain pun belum siap kot..hehe..Balik sane nnti..I nk pergi pantai. WAJIB!!! Compulsory to do bile hati dan fikiran tgah berkecamuk. Ceeh...again.Drama sngat.hahaha...N yes..I nk duduk tepi pantai..main pasir sambil tgok pantai yg cantik sangat tu...Mesti buat.Mesti!!..=) 

Sile abaikan jerawat tension tuh...=)

Si Tembam dan Si Kurus..ahaha

I don't know why lengan I beso camneyh..hahaha

Si Godang memanjat pokok...hahaha..berani!!!

Marco Alcaraz...Mahal Kita!!

See him!!Deyymmmmhot!! oH aktor filipina mmg sume hensem2. Sangat!!..Aduhhhh...Geram.*gataaiii..*hahaha.First time I know him bile die berlakon dalam cite It Might Be You long time ago...Oh My godd....Love him so mucch...wlupon xpernah jumpe.hahaha..Tgok muke die pun tau die penyayang, romantik, dan macam2 lagi.lol..Tapi dah kawen dh pun...hensem sangat2..agak2 I ade standard x nk dpat bf macam ni???ngehngeh....

oh my....Pengsan jap...=p

muaaahhhxxx...=*

Heart his body...ouccchhh...*wink*

Nampak macam I snap sendirikan??lol

p/s: Last entry for todayy..Lega korangkan??hahaha...Well, I have to follow my family balik kampung. My dad xkasi tinggal. So yeah..okay I ikut jelah...well dear Mr.A...nnti2 je g tgok wayang or pegi zoo..hahaha...I know ur intention nape nk bawak I g ctu kan??Well..thanxxx...but sorry..Next week je k..=)..Bye Allss!!!

Don't Ask!!! =,)

Tengahari tadi, my friend call..saje tanye khabar I guess. And sembang punye sembang smpailah die tanye my story..Bout what happen?Why?When?Who? Sume keluar..And lastly, I jugak dipersalahkan. Dan antare kate2nye adelah seperti di bawah..I malas nk listdown ape yg kitorang cakap..Sebab i dh membebel pnjang berjela  tadi, just explain to him bout what happen. Smpai hampir terbabas lah petang tadi...N yes..pinggang I sakit semule...-___-. Dan selepas saye habis bercerite...........................................

# Laaaaaa..........................knape jadi camni???Kenape wi percaye sgt kat die? See what happen now??..You're hurting urself!!!Die dh happy sebab dapat balik ex die n wi masih bersedih sebab baik sgt lepaskan die? Setau #### wi xmacam ni?Cepat sangat mengalah.? N dat guy nape kejam sangat? Knape die xterus-terang hal sebenar? Buat wi macam ni? ..dahlah wi.Lupekan laki tu..He's not the best for you. Jangan carik die n mintak penjelasan.Kalau btul die jujur n ikhlas mase kawan dgan wi, die akan carik wi bagi penjelasan. I xde kat sane. I jauh..And bende macam ni jadi kt wi. Sabar okey..Sabar..Everythings happen for a reasons.Biarkan die bahagie dgan pilihan die and someday die akan sedar..Jage kesihatan..Jangan fikir sangat..Just be happy..

(How I wish to be HAPPY Mista #####.................)

Hurmmm...I guess I xperlu nk story kpade semue orang bout what actually happen. Biarlah I sendiri yg 

tau..dan juge pembace blog niyh. I dun have to worry, sebab bukan ramai pun follower I niyh. So Mista #### Don't ask too much...Please?? I admit my mistakes. Because I easily fall in Love and just don't know how can I fall in Love with a wrong guy. Yes Mista #### saye tgah bersabar skrg ni, kalau x mmg saye xtau ape jadi. Saye pun xtau macam mane boleh jadi macam ni..Sebab die memilih untuk mendiamkan diri daripade memberi penjelasan kat saye. Saye pun xsangke die seteruk tu. Padahal saye tau, sebelum ni die sgt baik, memahami...Tapi bile dh jadi macam ni die lari. Sembunyi.But, Past is Past. Siape saye nk halang semue ni dari jadi kan? Dear Mista ###..Not to worry..Jage diri kamu disane. Kirim salam pade girlfriend kamu yg cute tu. Sorry I tolak u nk skype ke, ape ke.I tgah xde mood. Sangat xde. Thanx for call me and listen to me. Buat susah2 aje...U take care there frenzzz...=). N to all readers...SORRY AGAIN N AGAIN...I keep posting bout this...I mengaku, sangat susah nk lupekan semue ni. Kenangan all that. Just too hard for me. Dan selagi I belum fully RECOVER from all this...Selagi tu saye akan membebel.Just can't help it. I'm Sorry.

 SORRY......

Saye yang Dulu!!

OMG....xsangke I masih ingt akaun MySpace i..tempat i bersosail tyme kecik2 dulu..hahhaha...And I found several pictures dalam tu..Such a memories!!!Menangis lagi...ahhahahah

Rindunye dgan kulit halus mulus niyh...Lol

I miss my long2 hair....

Outing kt Sarawak dulu on my besday...=)

So many ways we can say I Love You, isnt it?

Love it..<3

Tyme ni I tgah ber-webcam dgan my ex...So tgh budget cute lah..hehe...

says: Hhahahahaha...rindu sangat2 dgn sume gambar ni...Like what Yuna said.."Dalam gambar, ade lagu."..hahaha...But I pulak...dalam gambar..ade story..I really miss my kanak2 life..hahahaha...My Dear Awin...maybe u shud turn to your old life...Be happy!!...And no one can hurt u again...Yeah I hope so...-_________-

Heart-to-Heart Conversation..Love You Mom...!!

Sedang membantu ibu masak kat dapur..Menu untuk harini sup tulang ayam dan juge tauhu bercili. Lol. Usually, ibu akan tanye I ape menu yg I nk masak, but I guess she knows I tgh xde mood kot. So I just tolong ape yang patut. Last day I sembang itu ini dgan cica...N today dgan ibu..bile dh ibu n anak gadis kat dapur mestilah bergossipkan??haha. .Mule2 sembang pasal orang lain.Bercerite perihal laki kawen due...Ya Allah..jauhkanlah aku dari alami situasi macam yg ibu aku cerite tadi..Smbil tu I pikir 2 3 kali..nk bagitau xnk eyh?? Then, I decide to tell her rather than she knows later or from someone else...Hhhmmmmm.....

I: Bu..awin nk cakap ni..awin dh xkawan dengan ......... lagi...

Ibu: Kenape pulak??Kan baru je?

I: Entah bu..xde jodoh kot. Biarlah...awin suruh die pegi kat girl yang die sayang..

Ibu: Kenape xrebut je?? Ko xsayang die ke? And ..... ckap ape?

I: Die diam je bu..So I guess tindakan awin btul lepaskan die..xpelah. Mungkin jodoh dgan orang lain. Bukan

   die. Awin pun xpandai nk bergaduh2 pasal laki ni. Awin lebih rele undur diri utk kebahagiaan org lain.

   Biarlah diri sendiri sakit pun, bnde ni semue dh biase. Dah mcam drama pun Awin tgok.

Ibu: .xpelah...Allah tu dah tetapkan sape jodoh kite. Terime je semue tu. Mungkin ade yang lebih baik akan

       datang nnti. Jangan fikirkan sangat nk bercinte ni. Tgok ayah n ibu, lepas bertunang baru bercinte.

       Keje dulu, lupekan semue ni. Insyaallah...one day u'll be happy. Ibu xdelah nk menjodohkan angah dgan

       sape2.Siape pilihan angah tulah pilihan ibu. Angah dh besar..angah tahu baik burukkan??

I: Ok bu...awin mmg bercadang buat mcam tu. N awin rase nk lupekan semue ni...Andai kate xde jugak

   jodoh smpai 25 tahun nnti, Awin terime jelah jodoh pilihan keluarge...Boleh??Dengan anak cik Ramlan tu

   pun boleh. Janji xnak askar. Even Pegawai Mude or so whatever. Xnk askar....

Ibu: Insyaallah...bnyak2 solat..mintak petunjuk.Ape yg baik untuk diri sendiri. Angah tu mude lagi. Ni baru

       ckit dugaan yg datang. Kene kuat..Jangan tau nk meleleh je air mate tu..Lupekan je semue ni. And ibu

       xckap setiap laki yg angah bawak balik umah tu jodoh angah. Dan angah mesti kawin dgan die? Tu

       pilihan Angah..yg mane baik yg tu ibu terime. Dah..jangan sedih lagi.Sabar....

So, I guess I akan ikut cakap ibu I..She ask me to forget all this crap thing and work at Shah Alam or Subang area..Maybe die sendiri pun tau I kene separate myself dari semue ni. Bukan bererti lari..but start a new life. Dunie bekerje.. Menurut ibu, busykan diri..then I akan dapat lupekan semue ni dgan cepat. Tanpe sedar. Dan Insyaallah..jodoh I akan datang dgan sendiri..And that time, ibu sempat pesan, jangan bercinte bagai nk rak, tapi akhirnye kahwin dengan orang lain. Kite ni manusie bese..xdapat nk lawan takdir dan jangan sekali-kali nk lawan takdir. Susah,senang,sedih,gembire tu semue kerje Tuhan. Kite xdapat nk lawan. So dengar cakap ibu, balik dari Sarawak nnti...duduk dgan Kak Enie atau Mak Su..kerje kat sane..Insyaallah semuenye akan baik..Dan I pun pergi masuk bilik ngadap report balik sambil fikirkan balik kate2 ibu tadi dengan hati yg terlampau sebak. But betul jugakkan..Maybe I shud go...Stay awayy from all this. I xtau kenape I sedih n emo sgt pasal bnde ni. I just don't know....But it's okay. I'll be fine someday... =,))))))

says: Sorry...Dlam mase 2 hari ni I keep on posting something sad and look pathetic. Angels, I bet y'all can guess what I facing through..I masih bersedih n terkejut dgan ape yang jadi. Dan I memilih untuk luahkan semuenye kat sini jer....Blog kesayangan I....Dear Azri..minggu depan jelah kite meet-up k.Aku xde mood nk keluar n esok nk balik kampung pulak. Sorry keyh.Okey then, thanks for reading..Xoxo, =)

Smile Awin...Just Smile...=)

Someone told me I just look so sweet if I smile and laugh...

But I really just can't now..Tomorrow??yes,maybe........=)

So I guess I have to smile again....and live my wonderful Life, isn't it????

Imisstheoldme!!

To be frank, I'm just too missing to be the old me. Bukan rindu apelah kan..hahaha...rindu awin yg hyperaktif dan bnyak ckap, miss my body of course..kalau dilihat dalam gmbar2 kt bawah I nmpak kurus ckit..ckit jelah..i mane pernah kurus sgt pon.ahahhaha...Unless I rase keding bile sakit, and thats's all.ahahaha..Well,to be true..rindu giler zaman mudo2 remaje.hahahahah...Mase ni tau nk ber-SOSIAL je..aaahaa...oppppss...mind ur words, honey!!And yeah..miss my face. Even xselicin Kak Hanis Zalikha yg cun-melecun, but at least I xfeel down everytime I sentuh2 pipi n dahi I..Gosshhhh...now I dunno what happen, but my skin kelihatan sangat pucat, pimples everywhere. Huhuhuhu...So sad...N yeah.Same goes to my hair as well. Ok but, as usual I ignore all that. As long that I'm happy. All that can be recover if I rajin wat treatment,this and that. And semue tu hanye boleh dilakukan kalau saye berduit ye. Ulang..jike saye berduit.Why sometimes people don't understand n keep forcing me? Korang ingat aku kaye ke??Hahahhaa...Why don't u alls yg belanje saye then??Asik nk memberi komen ke atas diriku ini jer..hahaha..(dah melalut)...Okay...Oh sangat susah dpat kulit sensitive but lagi susah kalau kite malas nk jage.Hhahahaha...Even kene gigit nyamuk ckit, n then I garu kulit I akan terus jadi buruk. 

And yeah....as usual...ibu akan bising bile I akan berterusan garu..sampai lengan pun dh mcam2 scars timbul...*SIGHHHHHH* 

Meet cda yg kiut...=)

oppps...jus found dis pic..lol.

mwaaaaacccccxxxxxxxxxxxxx!!!!!!!!!

p/s: Just found these pictures in my lappy and terus decide nk post in ma blog. Xde kene-mengene ape pun actually...hahaha...saje ngader. Well...Awin kan,Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...hahaha...Ok then, back to work.Assignment..Actually harini xsentuh langsung because I'm suffering backache n juge pinggang ni rase cam nk tercabut. Tulah gatal sangat duk bergelk tiru Preity Zinta. Hey..babes, body u xlentur macam die lah???...Okey at least I'm trying.hahahaa...Jusst IN LOVE with hindustan songs lately...n terus mengade nk ikut dorang joget..Ape jelah Awin oiiiiiiiiii....................(^^,=)